Sunday was our Bradley class reunion which i will admit that at first i was really stoked to go... i was really excited to see all the new mommies and their babies, jenny my teacher and doula and of course rick, Anna and Olivia. we all went through our birth stories and everyone but two ladies went all natural...those two ladies had complications that led to c-sections. so I'm really proud of everyone!!!! congrats to you all!!!
here is a pic of all the Bradley Babies!!!
however the more i sat there the more i realized that i didn't belong at all. i didn't have a cute little baby to show off and call my own. i didn't have a bundle of joy for everyone to ooo and ahhh over. don't get me wrong, I'm really happy for rick and Anna, but that was allot of work for me to go through to bring precious Olivia into this world and in the end as blessed and happy i am i feel very alone.
rick and Anna have made themselves scarce after a while....whatever the reason I'm sure its a good one. I'm happy to be back to myself and have "me" back to myself. there are a few things i wish were going differently but all in all I'm good. i don't regret one bit what i did for rick and Anna at all, there wonderful people but there is one thing that to this day still bothers me. people saying or thinking that i did this for attention.....3 people specifically. i think its the most absurd thing i have yet to hear. 9 months of pain, being paralyzed on and off for 3 of those months, puking, headaches, being tired, nothing fitting, stretch marks, weight gain, doctors invading my vagina, and the list goes on is NOT worth doing for "attention" Olivia on the other hand was worth it!!! 
this is Jack, olivia, and Michelle!!!
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