Jayvin Addison

so i while back i did a post on jazlynn and her progress over the last 3 1/2 years so today ill do one about Jayvin.

Jayvin aka Bubby is a wee bit sensitive at times. he gets his feelings hurt easily and and is very shy and passive. his fave thing to do is tinker with his toys. when i say that i mean he doesn't play with his toys, he trys and figures them out, how they work and how they are put together. grandma once said that hes going to be a mechanic but I'm shooting a little higher and going for an engineer for NASA!

Bubby has an incredible memory. he can hear a song once and sing it perfectly every time after. this means we sensor alot of what the kids hear and see. jayvin loves math, he can add and subtract using numbers 1-10. he can write and resite all his letters, he reads up to about 50 word and LOVES to draw. he know the normal, abc, counts to 100, shape and how many sides and angles they have and his colors. the thing that i love is that the twins both know about 15 word in Spanish (not counting numbers 1-15 cause they know those to) that's much more then me but Nathan is pretty fluent in Spanish so they get it from him.

the one thing that Bubby cant seem to get down is putting his shoes on the right feet. no matter how i explain it he just cant get it but he can dress himself so i guess its not that big of a deal. he LOVES to pic out his own clothes and sometimes this means wearing socks on his hands, his sis's undies, a cape and sometimes even Jazzy's dress up shoes. if that's the most i have to worry about with him right now that i wont complain. if he's happy and safe then that's all that matters.

Jayvin is a really good helper in the kitchen too. he has learned how to recognize the amounts on the measuring cups so as long as i poor he can read the recipes. he loves to cook and LOVES to clean as much as me and Jazzy. the poor guy hates making a mess and will cry over the smallest mess. i swear you would thing we beat him but i swear we don't.

he pees like a big boy now and i must say hes even tidy in the bathroom, he has great aim and even wipes the toilet seat off when hes done lol its a little much but still so cute! now i must say that he loves to tell you that boys have "pee pee's" and girls have "bagina's" and that everyone has a bottom lol. and he is obsessed with where baby's come from. Jayvin saw ridge born and he will narrate everything he saw...even when its not necessary. but me and Nathan are very open and we want our kids to be open as well, educated and to know that our bodies are not taboo and saying that to know that we should respect our bodies as well.

well I'm very proud of my Bubby and he is so dang smart...to smart for his own good. we got him assessed and both the twins are at a kindergarden and first grade level so i think were gonna skip preschool. i think its unnecessary at the moment, i want them to stay home for a while longer but we are looking into private schools when they get older.

Placenta Rocks

ya you read it right, its a blog about my Placenta....brace yourself and those with a weak tummy are warned!

after Olivia was born we had the doctor save my placenta, which was a little gross but, eh. did you know that alot of cultures actually feast on the placenta after birth and most animals actually eat there own placentas after their babies are born. the placenta actually has alot of benefits for, men, children, women during and after pregnancy. but before you go put one in the crock pot....(that was for visual purposes only, please don't try it) there is now easier ways to get all the benefits of the placenta without having to actually cook and eat it *cringe*.

before i let you in on what i did with my placenta i tell you what all benefits are!

*Postpartum Benefits*

-decreases likelihood of postpartum depression/mood disorders

-stimulates production of breast milk

-enhances production of blood and treats anemia

-balances hormones

-speeds recovery after birth

-eliminates fatigue

-stimulates the regeneration of cells and tissue

-speeds up the healing of wounds

-speeds of recovery after surgery

-reduces insomnia and sleep disorders

*Other Benefits And Uses*

-eliminates menstrual pain

-regulates menstrual periods

-improves skin condition

-eliminates problems associated with menopause

-treats infertility and sterility (both in male and female)

-stops nausea and vomiting during pregnancy

-treats influenza and the common cold even during pregnancy

-helps sick children improve their ability to fight disease

well in other words its like gold!!!!

well anyways i saved mine and rick and Anna were nice enough to store it in there freezer *cringe*! they then took it to "The Placenta Lady" yes this is what she calls herself, where she then freeze dried it and blended it into a powder and put it in capsules for me to take. its just like taking a vitamin and you cant taste it....well sometimes with the occasional burp here and there but it really just taste like one of those gross multivitamins or iron pills so its really tolerable.

now that some of you might be running for the toilet i have to say I'm so glad i did this. i get really bad postpartum as is and i was afraid how much worse it could have been in this type of situation where i had given a baby up. I'm very anemic which cause me to be fatigued and have no energy. i have a hormonal imbalances as it so my mood swings can get unbearable after birth, not to mention that the other benefits are all a big fat plus as well =)

so if anyone else is interested her names is

Nicole Ausdemore

address is 1640 w. monte ave.

mesa az 85202

# 480-671-4534

#480-628-6730

email- oznnik@msn.com

Charlie Brown Style

this year Nathan, my mom and i thought it would be a good idea to let the kids pick out the Christmas tree! the kids seemed really excited the whole way to the tree farm and i could hardly contain my own excitement!!! so we arrived and me and Nathan immediately dragged the kids to the back where the huge 13, 10 and 9 footers were. here's one that me and Nathan LOVED.

the kids immediately announced that those beautiful full trees were way to big. our bubble being popped me and Nathan remembered that this was supposed to be for them so we went to the slightly smaller ones and told them that whatever tree they pick is the tree that we will get, we promised!!! so they came upon this tree. we thought for sure that this is the one we were going to leave with
we were excited! i mean it was full and beautiful and the perfect size, 6ft i think. while me and Nathan were standing there discussing how we were going to strap the thing to the roof of the van we hadn't realized that kids had wondered away. when we turned around to the sound of there yelling we saw the jumping and pointing to this tree

are you kidding me????!!!! yes i know all the trees need love but seriously?! me and Nathan looked at each other both wondering what to say. however the kids reminded us that we had promised! curse those promises i say. so i went over picked the tree with one hand i might mention and took it to the register and paid 15 bucks for the thing. the guy asked if we wanted a rope to tie it to the top but we couldn't help but laugh. so this is where it ended up



it fits perfect!!!!!
so its gonna be a charlie brown Christmas after all. the kids had fun decorating the tree as you can see. my mom had to put it on a Little table stand so she can actually put some presents up but other then that id say its quite pretty.....wouldn't you?

Halloween

we had a really eventful Halloween this year for sure. seeing how more and more the kids grow with excitement with age makes me look forward to the years to come. this year as every year we didn't do the traditional trick or treating. me and Nathan kinda banned trick or treating since the kids aren't allowed candy anyways which leaves us to scarf the uneaten candy that is likely to pack on a few extra unneeded pounds on the both of us. so this year we went to the zoo which was a blast for the kids but a chore for poor Nathan. i was in a wheelchair do to some pregnancy complications and as much as the zoo likes to promote themselves as wheelchair accessible, there full of crap!

we also went to Sneph Farms which the kids LOVED!!! again, as much as they would like to think they are, there not wheelchair accessible either. Nathan is a trooper for sure. he took such good care of me =) i was disappointed that i was unable to go on the rides due to being pregnant and "handicapped" however it was a riot to see Nathan on them. here's a pic of him on the airplanes. obviously he did not fit well. this year i let the twins pick their own costumes. as cute as they ended up being i was still distraught that i would no longer be able to pick out cute matching costumes anymore. but they were happy and that's what matters.

jazzy decided on an adorable lady bug costume. i was shocked cause when i asked what she wanted to be she said a cat but i was also relieved cause she was a cat last year. so hear is her as a lady bug.

Jayvin decided on a dragon. however i was unable to find a cute dragon costume so i resorted to an alligator costume. when we went to check out at the register the cashier regrettably said "what a cute alligator your gonna make" Jayvin burst into tears insisting that he was a dragon not and alligator. so don't tell him that his beloved dragon costume is truly an alligator, what a sensitive boy he is =)and lastly there is Ridge. i picked his traditional pumpkin costume and what a cute pumpkin he made!
no this blog is obviously a little delayed to me having a baby and all. but as you know were well into December and the twins still insist on wearing their costumes all day and even to bed at least 2 times a week. on the positive side i definitely got my moneys worth!

Olivia's New Room

i went to rick and Anna's last night to see Olivia's room and it is sooooo cute! they really did a great job. every thing is in its place and clean and all ready to go. Nathan and the kids were with me and the kids were in the baby's room looking at all her toys and Anna was getting all her old stuffed animals down to let the kids play with them and me and rick were both going into a frenzy over the kids touching everything. i just wanted to keep everything clean and germ free and i think rick was getting his britches in a bind over it to. lol. i feel a little protective over her but i have yet to figure that out yet.

anyways Olivia's room is beautiful and rick and Anna seem more then ready! i can just picture her sleeping in her crib and snuggled in all her new clothes and blankets. napping in her bouncer while the dogs curiously sniff at her. I'm so excited!

And It Starts!!!

Nathan was out of town for a couple days for work and so it was me and the kids at home alone. i was thankful that Dorian our nanny was able to come out for a few hours each day to help me get some rest cause it was much needed. i feel as though i cant get enough sleep and i remember this feeling all to well. it means my body is preparing for labor. the last couple weeks i had a burst of energy that i used up on unpacking the rest of our bedroom, scrubbing the bathrooms, hand scrubbing the floors, and doing 2 yard sales, oh and painting my toe nails which i swear took the most effort!

Nathan has been back since Saturday and so i decided Friday night that another yard sale was in order. so Saturday morning came and i struggled to wake up at 530am but when i finally went to get up to pee i realized after i took a spill off the bed that my legs weren't really working. I've been having really bad pubic pain now and the chiropractor says that it could be shattered (she used another word but i cant remember what she said but that word reminded me of my word so ill use that) anyways its equivalent of having fractures and OMG painful!!! i almost wish my legs were numb again i mean that i can handle but this i cant. so Nathan was a sport and he got me, himself and the kids ready and drove us to my moms where he got the wheelchair, sat me in the drive way and let me be director of the sale as he did all the work. all 3 kids played outside during the sale so it was a little overwhelming but it got done and was successful. by noon we got rained out so we packed up and Nathan cooked the kids lunch and then they took there naps while me and Nathan went to goodwill to get jayvin a pair of pants for winter. i have a complaint to good will though. they need to make the place wheelchair friendly!!!!!

we got back and we decided to take the kids to Nathan's mom so me and Nathan could go have "me and daddy time" since he was out of town and he will be working long hours this week. i was craving salad so we went to Sweet Tomato's which is one of my fave places!!! in the middle of our meal an elderly couple interrupted us to tell Nathan how much they liked how he helped me so much!. it was so sweet of them to go out of their way to tell him that. the couple had come in when we did so they saw that Nathan pulled up front to let me out at the door and got out to get me out and then went and parked the car. then he came and got me and walked me inside ever soooooo slowly. he got mine and his plate of salad still while holding me up, it was so sweet and he was so patient. i think i told him sorry more then a dozen times just from feeling bad that i wasn't "normal". he kept kissing my shoulder to reassure me. he walked me to the table pulled out my chair and sat me down and was ever so gentle to tuck my legs under table and straighten me out. he went and got me every thing and anything i wanted from the buffet bar and even helped me to the restroom. like i was saying the elderly couple pulled in when we did, they were next to us at the salad bar and was seated at the booth across from us so i guess they saw everything and even though I'm used to Nathan being this way i could see how they would be impressed since now days guys just aren't that way. it made me stop and remember how thankful and lucky i am!

today was not any better so i really hope that by tomorrow i will be able to walk a little since Nathan has to go back to work and is working long days this week. i am more then ready for all this to be done with and even though i am not having regrets for doing this i am resenting the fact that it has had such a negative impact on my family. Nathan broke down last night and showed some tears for my pain. he says he hates it for me and he hates seeing me like this. it makes me wonder if i was selfish for doing this at all. i have so many emotions of anger, sadness, overwhelmed, sympathy and love that i don't know what way is up or down anymore and i don't know where or who to place these emotion with. who am i angry at or who is making me sad and overwhelmed? i don't know any more. i ignore the popular comment"your almost there" cause it doesn't mean a thing. its been months that ive been going through this and even when the baby is out my life will not just go back to the way it was. i don't think i can explain it and no one could possibly understand unless they have gone through it so its a bit lonely at times.

this is when ill say it. this has been by far the hardest pregnancy i have been though. i can handle being sick, loosing weight, on IVs and and in and out of the hospital cause it all leads to happiness for me at the end. a beautiful baby

that i can hold and adore. but this time I'm experiencing pains i didn't even know existed and its all for someone Else's joy. i sound selfish right now and i don't care, I'm human and bound to have these feeling at some point or another and it just means i have to reevaluate myself and the purpose that i was doing for this from the begging. my emotions have overshadowed my happiness for doing this and my happiness for rick and Anna's new beautiful beginning. so i just need to dig deep to remember, or be reminded or something.

i want to pop to night!!!!! lets pray its soon lol =)

Your Lease Is Up!

I'm now 36 weeks, measuring at 38 and I'm hoping that the measurements are more accurate and not that this will be another big baby for me. my dr felt and measured me and teased me saying it felt like a 12 pounder lol either way he says since the twins were 12 pounds and ridge about 10 pounds that it is very well possible. i roll my eyes at the statement lol or maybe its wishful thinking on my part.

we had our doc apt wed and my Douala jenny went with us. i really think that im the only one who likes my doctor lol. jenny and Anna both say that hes a nice guy but their not very convincing lol. even jenny my chiropractor says she doesn't care for him much but i really do love him. hes not as relaxed as i would want and he is more traditional in his ways then i like however when push comes to shove there is less shoving and pushing between us. when we disagree he tells me his opinion and i tell him mine and i follow it with a stern "its my way or the highway" and he just says "i think its a bad idea but you want what you want so" and that's the end of it. he never makes me feel stupid for disagreeing with him and he has this harsh dry sense of humor that i could see would put people off but i think its a riot and im not easily offended and he doesn't intimidate me so it really works out. really it probably is my personality cause i tend to be a little rash and blunt myself so i guess i could see how many women wouldn't like him and I've heard not many do but for me.....we work well together. i do wish Anna liked him more then i know she does and i know there have been times when she was a little offended by his ways and manners, or lack there of but i like that he puts me and the baby first priority and what we want cause it makes me feel like i can make more decisions for myself and not feel like i should always ask Anna if my decisions are ok. SHE has NEVER made me feel like i should ask its more just me cause its her baby and i feel like a babysitter in a way so i always second guess myself and my decisions asking myself if i think rick and Anna would approve.

I've had 2 episodes of false labor. nothing that i went running to the hospital for cause i know the "routine" and if i can avoid it then i will. i just wait and after a few hours it passes and all is well. at our apt dr kells went through his whole spill about what i need to do at the first sign of labor. he went through the rules pretty fast and didn't really put to much explanation into it and i know that its cause he know that even though he says that at the first sign of labor i need to go into the hospital that i wont so he doesn't waste much breath and just says what he needs to for liability reasons and that's that.

so anyways I'm feeling pretty well done and not even feeling like myself lately. Ive been going through allot and have pretty much given up on trying to explain how I'm feeling to anyone cause i realize that there not going to really get it. i had this conversation with my counselor and she says that if i ever have a problem with rick and Anna that i should talk to them about it....i laugh at that. i don't want any tension between me and my intended parents cause i don't want any resentment, the last thing i would ever want is to regret my decision on any of this and after explaining this the counselor said she saw my point. I've only seen the counselor once. Anna thought it might be a good idea to talk to a third party who wasn't bias and i tend to agree but i realized when she came out i didn't really have much to talk about. i mean anything that I've had a problem with i have ignored and i just explained why so besides that there really wasn't anything at all to talk about. maybe after the baby is born who knows cause I'm sure there will be some feelings that come up that weren't anticipated.

now that i have rambled. so I'm ready for all this to be over. i just want my space back lol.