A Little This A Little That

yesterdays doctors appointment went well.....not that there is ever much to them lol. Anna was really sick and to avoid getting me sick Rick went with me. same old same old, there is nothing they can do with the ligament pain, I'm gaining weight like crazy since i have not been able to exercise or even walk some days for the last 2 months or so, blood pressure is great, babies heart beat normal, I'm measuring a week ahead and I'm hoping this is accurate lol. i really cant wait to get my body back in shape and to myself. back to my 125lb self even though Nathan is hoping that i wont loose all the weight, what a chubby chaser he is lol. i have great access to a gym so ill get there. what is hardest is not being able to do things with the kids that i would normally be able to. we went to Schneph Farms over the weekend and even though that Nathan was such a sport wheeling me around in my wheelchair and the kids had fun riding on my lap, they were sad that i couldn't go on any of the rides with them. Nathan felt so bad that he would have to just park me to watch when usually i would be right in the action. he hates it for me. I'm a trooper though. i don't get out and see the family and rick and Anna much but when i do I'm pretty good at sucking it up and pretending top walk half ass normal but by the time i leave I'm in even more pain from the front i put on. i just hate the pity looks i get from people that i would rather suck it up not to mention i don't want rick and Anna to feel bad.

on the brighter side i think that the baby has a name!! Olivia Isabella. this has been the weirdest part for me. having someone else name the baby that I'm carrying. i don't know why it feels strange but it does. however from the beginning as they started naming off names that they had thought of in the past i knew that she would have a great name. allot of the names that they pick were "normal" compared to my kids names but they were all beautiful too. i had suggested a few names to them just to give them more to add to the list and Olivia is one that i suggested. i was almost certain that they weren't fond but evidently it grew on them. its still hard for me to wrap my finger around the name Olivia though. i was so certain that they were set on Sophia that i got that stuck in my head. i love the name Sofia even though its not a name i would choose for my own baby but neither is Olivia. there both beautiful and both sound like "rick and Anna" names if that makes sense.

well I'm 34 weeks (hopefully secretly 35) and i cant wait to be done! as much as i love this little jumping bean I'm more then ready for her to be home with her mommy and daddy! so I'm counting the days and I'm sure the new proud parents are to.

And A Sapotos Is?

everyday one of my kids is bound to make my jaw drop. yesterday it was jazzy. it started right before her third birthday that she surprised us with reciting 1-10 in Spanish ever so perfectly. ever since she has been obbsessd with learning Spanish and teaching jayvin what she learns which is no surprise that he picks up on it just as fast. so Nathan has been teaching her. well yesterday she asks me "mommy where are my sapotos"? i spent ten minutes trying to figure out what the heck a sapoptos is all while she is laughing and teasing me for not knowing what this stupid sapatos is. finally i call Nathan and ask him. while I'm asking him she already knows who I'm asking and lets out a hysterical laugh and says "daddy know what a sapatos it"! he laughs and says it means "shoe" so i ask her if she is asking where her shoe is and she smiles and says "yep, my sapatos is by the door".

its sad that my 3 year old know more Spanish then i do and even more so that they think its funny that they know something that i don't and tease me about it. Nathan just thinks its a riot. i do have to say that it was the highlight of my day and i wont forget that look in her eyes when she realized that she knew something that i did not. it was amazing watching her confidence rise before my eyes!

just thought i would share =)

Finding The Blessings In The Good And Bad

Anna's last post made me a bit gloomy. it makes me wonder if I'm taking advantage of this "gift" that I'm able to give. as much pain as I'm in as miserable as i am some days, should i be thanking god that i have the ability to feel this way at all. it seems i should because Anna is wishing everyday that she could feel all this pain and in almost every way i completely understand it. i think its human nature to desire what you don't have, i know I'm guilty at times. i think all this is a lesson that no matter whats absent in your life that you should find the blessing in the good and bad . after all it all has a purpose. its difficult to look at my own lesson at the moment but i think that because Anna is unable to have this baby bump of her own that she will definitely never take advantage of the blessing that comes after the baby bump, the baby herself. she will Cherish every mess, every sleepless night, every spit up, every poopy diaper, and every night that the baby falls asleep on her and despite that her arms and butt are asleep she will Cherish every tingly body part, when most take advantage of these things everyday. it makes me more grateful to be doing this for them. i wish Anna could carry this baby herself and experience what it's like to give birth to her baby and even though she has been here from beginning to end i know its not the same. if all i can do is allow them to be apart of this pregnancy as much as possible and promise not to take advantage of a single painful day then i promise to do it. I've heard it before "whats 9 months compared to a lifetime" and you know that's just not right. yes they will have a lifetime with her and if your just measuring time your right, 9 months is no comparison but its not about the time its about the bonding and I'm grateful that i can grasp this cause it allows me to have empathy for the other side and today i am grateful that i can feel the pain of pregnancy.

Baby Shower Bliss

Rick and Anna had their baby shower yesterday and i have to say, this kid is making out like a bandit! its like everyone has bought presents over the last 12 years that she should have been here and are now giving them to her all at once. i can only imagine what Christmas and birthdays will be like even more so since that will land in the same month.

Beau (Anna's sister) did a GREAT job with everything! bill, her husband and William and Morgan the new cousins to be were so helpful and definitely did there fair share of work as well. everything turned out beautiful! there were so many people, at least 50 and it all got a bit overwhelming for me. so many people and so many compliments on what I'm doing that it left me feeling a bit awkward. i guess that i just don't think twice about what I'm doing, i haven't questioned it this whole time so for someone to make a fuss out of it just makes me wiggle nervously in my seat. not to mention that it was Rick and Anna's big day and i didn't want to take anything from that. but on the other hand it is refreshing to see how happy everyone is that this day has finally come. even though i never know what to say when someone comes up to me to say thank you it is still appreciated so very much!

as Rick and Anna opened gifts i was surprised that a few were for me. it was so thoughtful and a total shock. it was really heart warming to be included. Beau got me a book and some smell good girly things, Ricks sister got me some bath things, someone else (i cant remember for the life of me who it was...sorry) got me some more bath pampering stuff and then Rick and Anna got me all sorts of stuff to pamper myself during and after the pregnancy. of course it wouldn't have been complete without some water works lol. rick and Anna included the sweetest card that, of course, made me cry like a baby in front of everyone. now i know all you nosey people want to know what it said so here it is

* My dearest Krystal*

Here we are, so close and yet so far! the thing is, we wouldn't be here at all if it wasn't for you! i know we have told you before, but we will never be able to tell you enough THANK YOU!! thank you for doing this for us, thank you for taking care of our little girl! i know it hasn't always been easy-lol! and thank you for helping us complete our family!!!! so here are just a few things to take care of you! hopefully to make you more comfy now, at the hospital and to recover later! so with all our love, appreciation and gratitude!

enjoy

Rick, Anna and Olivia

brings tears to my eyes even writing it lol. i think what does it is realizing that they don't take any of this for granted, not one little bit of it! but the thing is, i feel honored to do this for them. i feel like I'm the one receiving a gift as well. i am literally changing someones life, its taken 10 months to do but I'm doing it and i feel blessed that i have that ability! i love Rick and Anna so much and all their family as well! its so refreshing to see that out of so many babies that are born this baby is undoubtedly here for a purpose and will have so many people who love and thank god for her everyday and all she has to do is make her presents. so many babies and children fight everyday to get love like this and its amazing to be apart of a success story =)

Jazlynn

i just wanted to give some updates on the kids since i know some of my family who doesn't live in Az. now read my blogs. so i thought it would be nice to share some things that they have done and learned. so this post will be about jazzy and then ill do one on Jayvin and Ridge later. concores

Jazlynn Aliece Brauer-Woodworth

Jazzy Is so sweet and such a cuddler. over the last 3 years she has gone back and forth from being a Mommy's girl to daddy's girl and at the moment is back to being a Mommy's girl. she is now three and we feel blessed to have skipped the terrible twos and threes. she has gotten a little antsy the last few months from my lack of being able to be a active and tolerant as i used to be but trust me as soon as this baby is out we'll get back to the swing of things. now that she is three she knows her shapes and how many angles and sides they have ...well she know what a Pentagon, octagon, triangle, square, rectangle, circle, heart and star are...oh and an oval. so maybe not ALL the shapes but a fair amount. she knows her colors, the main colors anyways =). she is REALLY into letters and numbers. she loves to write her alphabet and even though some end up backwards, overall she does a great job. she can do easy addition with her fingers but we haven't even tried to tackle subtraction though. she loves to be read to and can actually read approx 40 words herself. she gets smarter and smarter every day and i love to see how much she thinks learning is fun. i never push them but i do challenge them however we never challenge them to failure. she is so loving to. she is the one who corners her brothers and gives them kisses (reminds me of what i used to do to my cousin. poor Luke I'm so sorry lol). she is the little mommy of the house. she is always looking after her brothers and always wanting to help me around the house. she does have her own chores though but to her i think she thinks of them as games. she has 3 chores, she makes her bed every morning, unloads her plastic dishes and silverware and puts them away and she loads her own dishes and silverware to the dishwasher. obviously she cleans up hers toys and what not but that's not a chore that's just something she needs to do. we pay them for their chores to. she gets 25cents for each chore she does. so 75cents total but its not all for spending. one quarter goes in a spend pouch, one quarter in the save pouch and the last quarter in the give pouch. the spend pouch they can spend on whatever they want and we usually take them to the dollar section in the stores. the save ...that's common sense and the give is for them to give to there Sunday teacher, or money collector at the grocery stores and what not. well that's kinda of where we are with jazzy. were not around other kids so i don't know whats normal or not but i do know that i love her and she makes us so proud!!!

As Requested By Kim

a friend of mine requested that i explain how all the paper work for the baby after birth works. ill just explain everything that we have planned for after birth just to cover any and all questions.

so after the baby is born we plan that Anna will be staying at the hospital with me until I'm released. its such a small room and i know the chair that they have in there is so uncomfortable that i don't know how that will work. when i stayed with ridge in the hospital when he had RSV i made a cot on the floor lol cause that chair is ridiculously uncomfortable! anyways i wont be able to sign my rights over until 3 days after the baby is born. the reason being is cause i would have to sign my rights over to rick since he is the biological father and then Anna will have to go through a process for step parent adoption since the baby is not biologically related. they make you wait for three days cause i guess back in the day moms who were planning on putting their baby up for adoption would sign the papers right away but then come back and fight it saying that they were "hormonal" and not able to make rational decisions. so now by law the mother is allowed 3 days to make her final decision. at this point we will have a lawyer come in and go over the paper work and at the end of the 3 days ill sign my rights over. legally my name and ricks name will be on the birth certificate. Anna has to go through classes and have a social worker come check her out before she can begin the adoption process. this is so silly to me...cant i just chooses who i want? i guess it just doesn't work that way. anyways. the baby can then go home with rick and Anna. we all plan on staying in touch. we have already went over what i expect for minimal contact like pictures once a month, year etc letters, and updates etc. and then we when over what would be ideal for me. we have already become friends so obviously if we ever hang out, go to dinner or what not i would see the baby. i plan on staying friends with Anna and rick and I'm not so concerned on whether i see the baby or not. as unattached as that sounds its the truth. the only reason that i would want picks or updates is that with it being biologically half mine i still have that emotion that i want o know that she is safe and happy and i would love to see what she looks like as she gets older compared to mine and Nathans kids. for the first month i requested that IF i feel at the time that i need closure then i would like to see the baby more often in the month of December. i wont know how i feel, i might end up wanting nothing to do with her, i can see it going either way.

well i hope i answered my friends questions =)

Little Thoughts, Little Blessings

to me its the little things that people do that i notice the most. like when Nathan writes me a little note before he leaves in the morning telling me to have a good day. when Jayvin comes up to me when i first wake up and put my glasses on and says to me "mommy, i like yours glasses". its those little thoughts that make the biggest impression with me.

this evening we took a tour of chandler hospital. Rick and Anna came and picked me up, as i hopped in the car Anna told me that she picked up a couple shirts from Wal-Mart for me. it was nothing extravagant but it was so sweet to know that during the day when shes doing her daily errands and routine shes thinking of me and the baby. she says it all the time but to see it is so heart warming.

just thought i would share cause it brought a smile to MY face =)

Call me Selfish

being pregnant makes me selfish. at least that's how i feel most of the time. i manage to keep the house clean, the kids clean and fed and pretty happy. but that's where it ends. i don't cook these last couple months, and i don't do the grocery shopping. i don't pamper my hubby like i normally would and i don't take the kids out as often as i should. these last couple of months that i have been sore and irritable, not to mention tired and unable to even walk or move at times, i have been selfish. Nathan does what i should and Nathan does what he should and that leaves me feeling lazy. most of the time i know that i just cant do some of these things its not physically possible with whats been going on medically through this all but i still feel the guilt.

now....I'm going to be bold and slightly more selfish and post my Christmas and birthday wish list for all to see. i have 5 more weeks of this baby sucking the life out of me, hopefully it goes by fast. in the mean time a girl can wish right?

*1 hour massage *ahh how good this would be*

*a facial

*get my hair colored....finally

*mani and pedi

*debit gift certificate to get some clothes to celebrate my new figure lol *hopefully skinnier figure in about 4 months*

*a paid for date night with Nathan*prepaid 2 months to the chiropractor*this one is well needed*

that's it...that's all i want =)

Ember Wins

i asked everyone what my next blog should be about and out of the three responses my cousin September wins.

Me and Nathan have been thinking about moving for quite some time and have narrowed it down to two places. Illinois being our first choice and Colorado being our second. Illinois is our first because i have two different families there that i haven't been able to get to know. i have my dads side of the family that i remember visiting maybe 2 times since i was....i don't know in 5th or 6th grade. i really love that side of the fam. there so loud and friendly and so "let me tell you what i think". and really that's SOOO me, i get it honestly =) they have really seem to stick together over the years and there just one neat bunch! i love them to death and really want my new family (Nathan and the kids) to be raised around such a family oriented environment. than i have my moms side...well kinda. my mom sister Jamie who died when i was two maybe had a son who is now 26. Micheal is an amazing person you just came into our lives a few years ago and has made a huge step moving to Arizona with his boyfriend to get to know us. well his family is my family and I've never had the the opportunity to meet them. I've only heard great things. they seem to be really tight and so helpful to one another.

so many people to get to know and we want to do it soon! this was actually all Nathans idea and it took him a bit to get me on board. not that i wouldn't like to get to know my family but its a little scary. what if their disappointed? what if i don't fit in or we don't get along....then what? but I'm on board now! so far we have been looking at Naperville but not set on it completely, we"ll see. if we move it wont be for a couple years so we have time. a good school system is our number one priority!!!!

This And That

I'm really enjoying the shady skies and breeze that the Arizona weather has brought today. with the feeling back in my legs and minor ligament pain i maid way to the outside santan mall to take the kids for some ice cream and let them play in the park. i think i braved about 2 1/2 hours before it was time to take the kids home for their nap. I've heard it more then once, "take it easy" by more people then i can count but really....?....take it easy? it must just be a nice thing to say cause if their actually serious then please....lets trade places for a couple days and we'll see what you think after that. craziness i tell you!

tonight is our meeting with Jenny my Doula. Rick, Anna and i have decided to labor at their house since there place is better equipped for a labor tub, which if i haven't already mentioned I'm really stoked for!!! we'll probably go over what I'm looking forward to during labor and then delivery and since Anna and i already made several lists already this should go well. Nathan is really excited to be a part of my labor as he was with ridge. we decided that IF i decide to share the tub then he'll get in with me but we'll just see when that time comes. i can be a little greedy at times so......

Guilt On The Brain

last night Nathans family all got together for Nathans birthday and Ridges non official birthday. Nathans mom had mentioned to Nathans sister-in-law how good Ridge is and how easy he is to take care of. this isn't news to me, I'm well aware that all my kids are pretty well behaved and it makes me proud to be able to say that. me and Nathan both feel that we have both worked very hard to raise our kids the best we know how. there is a reason to our madness, for example. why do we live in a tiny cheap house, and live completely below our means? well, so i can stay home with the kids of course. it was very important to the two of us to let go of all materialistic things and have me stay at home in order to have the most influence in their behavior. were hoping to be the biggest influence in their lives cause we both know its inevitable that when they get to school they will pick up on things that we wouldn't approve of. so we want to teach them what WE want and help them to learn how to make good decisions for themselves so hopefully when they do get to school they wont fall into all the bad behavior that they will be confronted with. not that they will be perfect cause that's just not logical but hopefully they will be better. now i was going somewhere with this. its been hard for me to admit that I've needed help lately and that my body has taken a toll. I've always been the one to take care of the kids and its always been so easy. so when i hear Nathans mom comment on how easy the kids are, as great as that is to hear it also gets me feeling guilty as to why i even need a part time nanny for the next couple months?! i should be able to do it all by myself, after all i did it with ridge who i had a difficult pregnancy with even though we did hide that from our families and with the twins well that was really rough and even though i made it all look great it was hard with both of them. i was just really good at hiding that. and now with this one i might say I'm fine and unless you ask me the specifics of whats going on you wont ever know everything that is going on and for how long its been going on. so as much as a nanny will help for those days that i cry in pain just moving from one side to the other and the days that i literally cannot walk cause it hurts so bad, there are days like yesterday and today that i can walk and i feel decent and all this makes me feel so guilty! my bliss today will be short lived and who knows if i will wake up able to move tomorrow or the next day and its those days that i admit to myself that i need help. but days like today where throwing up, contractions and cramping are the least of my worries.....i will take the kids to the park and enjoy the day that i can do it all on my own =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATHAN

i cant believe that just 2 days ago ridge turned 1 years old! in the excitement of his special birthday breakfast, lunch at hooters and a fun day with just me and him...till daddy got home anyways i was afraid that Nathans birthday, which is today, would get forgotten again. last year we spent his birthday in the hospital having Ridge so we didn't do anything. Nathan was just fine with that, he was more excited about his new baby boy. in fact his birthday morning i lovingly threw a pillow at him from my hospital bed to wake him up and wish him a happy birthday. his response "oh ya...it is my birthday isn't it)? lol

this year i hope it will be different cause this past year for my birthday he def went out of his way. he made reservations at my fave restaurant, The Melting Pot. but before that he made me a surprise spa apt. to get my hair done, then we went to eat. when we arrived to the restaurant he had already had everything pre ordered, had them put my flowers, card and presents on the table and had them take pictures and print them out right there =). after, he took me to The Faramont Princess to relax in their bar and take a dip in the Jacuzzi. it was such a nice birthday that i wish i could do the same for him. i cant even stand long enough to cook or bake him anything and even though i feel guilty cause this pregnancy was my idea, he has been nothing but understanding!!! he says that as long as he gets to spend today with me and the kids that he couldn't be happier and i know he meant it! I'm sure i will think something sweet to do for him...i hope!

Nathan,

thank you so much for being so understanding through all this. you have been nothing but supportive and i appreciate you dearly for it! i love you and i am so lucky to call you my hubby-to-be.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Happy Birthday Ridge Piercely

i cant believe Ridge is one years old today. my baby is growing up so fast!

at 10 months he took his first steps and now hes running like crazy. he is very active and loves to explore everything. he is very vocal but thanks to his big sis who thinks she is a big helper he doesn't talk much. she talks for him lol! he says ma-ma, da-da, bye-bye, hi, bear (hes attached to his teddy) and yummy (this is suiting since the boy eats all day long). he loves to wave to people and say hi or bye. he has followed in his brother and sisters steps and has learned how to put his toys away in his toy box and throw his diapers away. he has been off the bottle since 10 months and i replaced that with a sippy cup and he is now off formula but will still get breast milk for as long as he wants just like twins still do. the boy eats any and everything!! not so bad since we eat all fresh (no preservatives) so this isn't so worrisome.

even though we will be celebrating his birthday in the first week of November were still having a special day today. this morning i got him out of his crib singing him happy birthday, he got a kick out of that and for his breakfast he got a birthday cookie. now you know me i couldn't actually fully go through with this so his "birthday cookie" was actually a Quaker oatmeal breakfast bar that happened to be round like a cookie lol.

time has gone by so fast i cant believe it. i know everyone told me that it would and i did believe them but not to this extent! I've learned so much from all of my kids and Ridge has taught me to just enjoy the little things and live in the moment.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY BOY!!!

Spicy Food And Mt. Dew

its always so amazing to me how far technology these days has come. today was our 4D ultrasound and it was AMAZING to see every little feature. i will say its VERY obvious that she has my pudgy nose lol and maybe ricks lips. we first took 30 mins just trying to get the girl to turn around. she was upside down with her face to my back which don't get me wrong that was so nice to see. that the perfect position for labor and delivery and that keeps my hopes high that i wont be cursed with a prolonged labor accompanied with back labor since ridge was "Sunny side up" (head down with the back of his head in my back) that is a painful position! however as exciting as that is it didn't allow us to see any of her. so we did everything to try and turn her but after a half an hour we finally decided that maybe some spicy food and Mt. Dew might do the trick and it did. poor girl shes never had so much caffeine before her heart was probably racing. well she completely flipped head up and side ways so we could at least see most of her face (picture coming soon). it was very exciting for all of us and i cant believe how beautiful she is =). Rick and Anna our now thinking of the name Olivia Isabella which i love as i have loved all their names.

as exciting for us as this was poor Ridge had to be rushed to the ER from some sort of allergic reaction he had that we think was from eggs. it was really scary. he had hives every where and his skin was turning blue! they gave him some medicine and he seems fine.

tomorrow Ridge is ONE!!! i cant believe how long its been since he was born and how fast it has flown by!

Girls Night Out

last night was a much needed night out for me and the bonus was it was with Anna. she felt that it was about time to get some maternity clothes and i guess i would have to agree. I've gotten much bigger and according to Dr. Kells i didn't gain enough weight (he was being completely sarcastic and made it known) lol i love my Dr. hes so forward, a bit of a jerk

and has a twisted sense of humor....just like me which is why we get along so well lol. anyways back to our girls night out. so we got some really cute and comfy clothes that i will most likely be able to wear during my postpartum while the baby weight is coming off. when we got back into the car i had a bit of a sob fest over the grand total of the clothes and tried to get Anna to let me pay at least half but she refused. its so hard for me to take anything from Rick and Anna cause getting money wasn't my intentions from the beginning but at least Anna made me feel better and a little less guilty. after the sob fest we went to the Cheesecake Factory for dinner and had some good conversation. after, we made our way to Victoria's Secret to get a new bra since my stupid preggo boobs have gotten ridiculously big lol. well needless to say we had a great time and had some good discussions and alot of tears lol damn hormones.

tomorrow we have my 4D ultrasound and I'm so excited to see what the baby looks like =). rick, Anna, Nathan, the kids and myself will all be going. I'm excited that i will be getting a 25 min CD of my own to keep.

Our birth plan is done, we made our hospital lists of everything we want to bring, we have made a list of my expectations during my labor and our food list. seems like we have gotten alot done but it still feels like we have so much left to do. approximately 9 weeks to go =)

Bittersweet

i cant believe Halloween is almost here. this will be Ridges second Halloween but his first REAL one. he was born October 5Th of last year so he wasn't even a month old and we didn't even dress him up so it doesn't REALLY count. this Halloween were thinking of having a party for the kids. nothing to crazy just some games to earn them and their guest candy, wear costumes and have fun food, maybe a movie. we don't do the trick-or-treat thing and never have. the reason being is one we don't see the point in letting them go collect candy that we wont let them eat anyways and two cause its just not safe these days. last year we took them to a park to see a parade and play games and i believe we did the same the year before that. we've never really been the traditional type anyways and its not like their missing out cause we do celebrate....just in our own way. same with Christmas. we don't do Santa and presents. they get so many presents from family its ridiculous that we just don't feel the need to buy them any. instead we have our own tradition. the day before Christmas eve we spend baking goodies for ourselves, neighbors and family. then we go through our slightly used toys and let the kids pick out some to donate, and then we wrap them up. Christmas eve we drop the toys off to a shelter along with food and the cookies. that Christmas eve night we make hot chocolate and go look at Christmas lights. then Christmas morning we have a big breakfast, and then visit all the family and open their presents. they know Santa is not a person of today but instead we share the real story behind Santa and the significance of giving at Christmas instead of getting. now trust me we have had alot of controversy from our friends and family but the way we think of it is, if you want to argue with us teaching our kids about giving instead of receiving and the value of family time instead of gifts then that shows the person and parents you are =) when we put it that way it definitely shuts people up. even though we have our way we don't think any body Else's way is wrong. everyone has their own traditions and to each his own.

so any who on another note, tomorrow is my 30 week Dr apt. cant believe how time has flown by. our classes our over and we have a doula selected. now were just revising the birth plan and getting a list together of everything i want for the home labor like, candles, music, birthing tub, food etc. and a list for the hospital as well. lots to do and time is going so fast. before i know it its gonna be over and a distant memory. how bittersweet

Corney Smiley Faces

today feels productive! i picked Anna up from work and we went down to the Finance office for chandler hospital to see about taking care of some past due bills. its funny that no one told me to do this sooner and i talked to everyone and their mother that is affiliated with chandler hospital and my insurance company. i could have gotten this taken care of alot sooner if someone would have just told me. but Anna being a social worker at mercy Gilbert which is chandler hospitals sister hospital she's got hook ups =) so lets hope this takes care of it and then i can put a BIG check along with a corny happy face next to this on my To-Do list.

i don't ever remember being so sore in all of my pregnancies as i am with this one. even with the twins and i was on bed rest and in and out of the hospital and as big as a mammoth...maybe bigger, who knows. my ligaments are soooo sore i can hardly walk, sit, stand, sleep, even blink! ok so the last one is a bit exaggerated but i think you get the idea. Anna is talking about a Mommy's Helper so hopefully that works out....god knows i need it right now. well that's my thoughts for now...maybe more later.