Monday, July 13, 2009

Random*ness

At 9 weeks I’m already starting to show. Sometimes its fine, it doesn’t bother me at all and then I step into my closet and stand there staring at a variety of clothes that just don’t want to fit =( it will be another year at least before I get to wear my cute clothes again. Yes I knew this would happen, I’m not saying I’m surprised but its just another thing that makes this so real.

Meat makes me sick so I’m eating every 30 mins stuffing my face with cottage cheese, beans, big spoons full of peanut butter and anything else I can find high in protein just to make my goal of 100 g of protein a day. This is just so impossible without beef or chicken in sight. By the end of the night I’m bursting at the seams and fatigued. Again I knew this would happen and I’m not saying I’m surprised.

I went to the chiropractor today. We went through all the questions including how far along I was. Saying 9 weeks with a 7 month old at home and oh did I mention my 3 year old twins to? Yes Mr. chiropractor man I am 23 years of age. I saw the look that came across his face. He was wondering how many baby daddies I had, since I marked my paper work single. They really need to put a spot to choose domestic partner or something.

I called my insurance today and put a change report in to let them know I was pregnant. The lady actually said when I told her “again?” yes lady who I can’t even understand I am pregnant AGAIN! Ill save you the question and just follow that with, and yes I’m 23 years of age. I sensed the unsteadiness in her voice. She was judging me saying to her self that if I stopped having so many damn kids maybe I wouldn’t have to be on govt insurance.

Jazlynn and Jayvin have noticed the baby bump. Jazzy knew it was a baby and was completely fine with my explanation. I explained that its Rick and Anna’s baby but the baby has to borrow mommy’s belly cause Mrs. Anna’s belly isn’t big enough. I questioned my answer but I think its age appropriate. She was satisfied with it. But with knowing that there is a baby in there comes with all the poking and pinching. Let me tell you how great it feels when your 3 years thinks playing with your rolls is fun. Trying to stretch out my already stretched out belly button to “see inside” I just fake a giggle cause the last thing I ever want is for her to hear the word fat come out of my mouth. We don’t use that word, we don’t use the word skinny either .

Well it’s all real and I feel it everyday, and if I don’t someone is always there to remind me. But a phone call from Anna every day makes me keep things in perspective. Its ok if my clothes don’t fit, it a good excuse to buy new ones. And hey there are many uses for peanut butter right? Think what you want Mr. chiropractor man cause I know if you ever found out the truth you’d feel like an ass. Lady that I cant understand on the phone, I don’t even care, DES is a pain in the ass any ways and as for jazzy and bubby, if there anything like me they wont have any trouble understanding this new life that’s borrowing mommy’s belly.

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